Appreciates. 感谢。

Recently, some incidents happened in my life.
Some brought me full of joys,
some worried me ,
some come along with some troubles,
some really taught me valuable lessons.
Somehow,
i had learned how to be more independent.
i had learned how to differenciate between true friends and the other way.
i had learned how to face problems bravely.
i had learned not to avoid the problems, like what i did in the last time.
i had get started to do more than last time that i did, be more positive and hardworking in my future.

Somehow,
I knew myself is always the lucky one as in having so a lot of good friends who concerns me a lot while i'm facing the problems.
I appreciate. and here a thousand of words can't even express the real feelings in my heart towards my friends.
I appreciate this all incidents had taught me a very vivid lesson that who besides me are not worth to be friend and not to trust with my heart.

and i decide not to act in front of those people,
not to wear a mask that act happy in front of those who are actually talking my stuff badly behind of me and acting friendly to me while facing me.

People who really knows me should know i hate people who acts like that the most and now i declare that, i'm going to do something according to what they did.

Please do not overdid and over my limit.
i have my private life, i lead my private living. i do need some privacy too.
Don't you feel tired of discussing other's life behind ?
Don't you feel tired of making story and guessing other's mind with your angle too?
Don't you feel tired of typing out script that you are not really clear with it ?

I will not jump out to the public and tell everyone about what i'm doing
and what's the reason i'm doing it too.
Because that is my privacy and it is not necessarily to do so.
I do what i think it is right,
I do what my friends supporting me to do,
and i'm doing what they think i'm right.

People who knows me well doesn't need me to explain,
people who likes to gossip will be gossiping everywhere even though i had explained to them.
people who doesn't want to trust you and not clear with you ,
will still suspecting you after your explain.
i don't need a explaination to my deary friends.
they know me well.

please don't say like i'm using my friends.
i feel that you are insulting them,
don't you think you are underestimating them?
they are clever and enough of maturity to judge about what a person I am.

If you think you can see thru me that I can tell you,
you are definitely wrong.
Yes, i'm wearing a mask,
who does not?
whoever will wear their mask when facing the public in their life,
that is purely because of self defensing.
I admit I'm.
And you dare to neglect that or saying yourself never go out with a mask?
Only when i'm with my real friends,
I will take off my mask.
And that time, i reveal myself to them.
have my real enjoying moments, memories with them.
and they are who,
who really can categorized as my real friends,
and only them have the right to criticize me :)
I will not try to explain for myself in front of you all.
and i just getting tired of ,
leaking information in my life.
stop acting friendly in front of me.
if you are tired of acting in front of me,
you can choose not to meet me,
because i'm tired of meeting you too :)


Please do not show your fake concerns if you are not.
I don't need a fake friend :)
nor my dad too.
i don't tell people about my dad,
because i know it will be a interesting topic for you all.
somehow the news spread out,
and now,
some negative news are coming out with that.
nobody will use illness as their weapon to gain pathetic from others.
I don't need gain anyone passion with that,
and here i declared.
I'm not so desperate yet and need to gain guys' pathetic and passions or love by using my dad as my shield.

Yes,I am having a sick,
that was there when im in my primary school time.
but i don't think that i'm weak and need someone to take care.
i do not need people to take me as a patient though.
Please do not tell people like i'm that weak like a patient who is going to die.
I'm strong and capable to do anything just as a normal person, thank you.

here once again,
Do respect people privacy.
I won't care what you all say,
just i also have my right to say something about that.
thank you.

小顽皮。from eddie ;)

来自eddie的一个将近半夜的惊喜。
谢谢你。我真得很喜欢，很开心。。
不用一个人睡了：）
它很可爱，也很活跃。
我会好好照顾它的：）

a surprise in the midnight from ed,
thanks ne! i really really like it very much..
no need to sleep alone from now onwards :)
it is so active and adorable.
I will take good care of it :) promise.

Clovers birthday :D 四叶草生日会

Just some photo for the day for memories.
And thank you for you guys to come :)
thanks for the people who helped me for the party set up and preparation.
Credits to Pey voon, Ah yi, Eddie, ah bay and ken .

Thanks for the presents you all gave that night and the memories we have made.
I love my secondary gangs and my college gangs! You all are the best in my life!
Thanks shing iie , lwl, calvin , david and yenn yee for help me to accomplish my birthday wish, craft for my clover...
Thanks once again to lwl for editing the clover to be lightened. hehe, it's great.
Lwl, i know u sakit perut, thanks for coming and sorry to know you get into sick in the next day..take care okay?

Thanks shing iie for coming so early and helped out of me that day. :D
nice to meet you, really!

Thanks calvin and lwl for brought me the containers and the shit u both had given to me as my present..

Thanks david for coming even the next week is your final.

Thanks to my secondary gangs, especially to yen yang for driving and i know you definitely will be scold by ur dad after you come, really thanks, dai lou!

Thanks to MAMA hui xin and BABA abu for coming and mama, you are really great and caring T_T!! thanks for the make up that night, i like it , hehe..

Thanks hui ying and xiao min , even so busy yet still comes to my party.
Oh yea, thanks to "zhi quan" too, helped out really a lot that night.. :)

Thanks ah yi and Eddie helped me to wear the yugata which you both get to learn it from youtube's guilde, hahahaha!! Thanks clover san for the yugata too.

Thanks to RO gang for coming too.

Thanks daddy bebelui for the bracelet you gave, i'm wearing it everyday now.
And bay's necklace too.

Thanks to Lei and Viv's clover book and green crystal. I like the story very much :)

Thanks to kendrick for the big green green.

Thanks to everyone for your present :D

Specially appreciate for sammy and shui for playing the guitar and solo-ing the Fall for you song. The moon is really round. i really enjoy it very very much.. it will be my precious memory in my life.

Thanks to pey voon for being my personal assistant and photographer on that day!

Thanks to eddie and bay for the surprise on 8th may, even though that time i'm not really in mood. but i really really appreciate it.

Thanks for the seed of four leaves clover by bay and eddie too, i ng she dak to plant it even now.. hahaha.. :)

Thanks for yi who made my room full of shining stars now. It makes me sleep peacefully every night now..

Thanks god who brought me a bunch of nice friends and family to celebrate my 19th birthday with... Wish next year i'm still here to celebrate my birthday with all my friends.

Thanks raymond for show up that night, we are still very best friend , okay?

thanks to everyone who wish me have a happy birthday :D

really a thousand of thanks i wished to say it here.
hehe
Here goes some photos..

太多事情，太少时间。

你从来都是我最信任的人。
我知道你绝对不会做伤害到我一分一毫的事。
无论你自己要受多少苦。。也不会宁愿去伤害我。
但是我更知道。
要是我让你知道我好痛苦。。
你会更加担心，会自责。。为什么自己帮不了我。

今天看着你的那一刻。。
突然间想。。
是不是。。没有了我。你会更开心。。你看起来好快乐。。
我们好像越来越远了。。
是不是考虑得太多呢？
我没什么。。
你开心，就好。。
我们都是这样想的吧。。
你还好吗？
我最好的朋友。
有事情瞒着我吗？
担心我吗？
你不开心吗？
你还好吧？
我最好的那位朋友。。。
请相信我。
你将会在我心里，
存活一辈子。
或许现在你觉得帮不到我，
内疚自责。。
可是。。
我从来都不怪你。。
很感激你。。
不离不弃。
那就是对我最好的支持。。
我最能信任的人不多。
你，
无需再怀疑。
我最好的朋友。。
请别担心。。
请相信我。
我会好好过。 :)
谢谢你，
水。

Dad had discharged

these few days ,
morning at 7 wake up to factory.
after that went to hospital and back to home fetch mom,
then lead to hospital again...
haha.. so fully schedule and occupied,
everyday almost 11 or 12 only get back home.
talk to those business uncle that i don't even know before.
Trying to comfort my mom.. and not to argue with her..make sure she don't argue with dad too.
calculate the exterior design graph that i never learn before.
calculate the bill and deal with the UBS system, hoho, luckily i learned this before.
and luckily I'm considered as a business student so that i quite familiar with those steps of the trades.hahaha..
and talk to the doctor and nurse about dad's situation and the insurance people too.
afterall still need to settle the party stuff that day i lend from my friends
and fetch back the hi-fi to my brother.
And yesterday night,
was so happy that dad had discharged from hospital.
Today i fetched him to factory for some necessarily stuff that he need to settle and i had bought something that I can cook for him to lower his colestrol and blood pressure.
Had found some information from net and talk to the people in hospital about how to take care of his meals from now on. @_@.

Thank you my friends and my relatives.
I'm fine. my dad is recovering. I will take care of him and my mom. At least, i will try my best to do so. hehe. no worries. I'll do it with smiles. :)
thanks yi. these few days being guli there. hahaha, personal slave sia.

ps. If you all know some delicious recipe for healthy food, please kindly send it to me. i need to cook a lot different dishes leh. tolong tolong. hahaha

爸，加油。。 Dad.. gambatte ne.

很突然的。 爸爸进院了。。
没有任何预兆。。 很突然的。在我生日过后的一天。。爸。
他中风了。
没有人能理解。爸对我有多重要。。
我更知道。在这个时候。
我必须。。坚强。 我必须站起来。
昨天起，我已经代替爸到他的工厂。接手公司的运作。
很担心。。 也很烦躁。
爸。。他的血压在最高峰的时候达到了250。
真得很庆幸。 他的血压在第二天的时候有下降的迹象。。
他能说回话了。。 还尽量说笑话让我微笑。
在他身体插满了氧气喉的那一刻。。
看着我，满是忧心的那个眼神。。
我忍了好久好久。。说好不哭不哭的。。 还是很不争气。。在他的面前。。
在他交待我公司和家里的事情的时候。。
我哭了。

妈妈老了。。
有很多事情。。 她已经不懂得处理。。
连医院也不会去了。。 也不晓得医生说什么。。
情绪也非常反复。。不稳定。。会发脾气。。
在这个时候。。
她却最需要的，竟然是钱。
钱， 依然对她来说是依然重要。
最有安全感？哈。
哥哥也有自己的公司。对于爸爸的事情。。
他也能算是无能为力？还是不想尽力呢？
到发生事情的那一刻。。大家都在推卸责任。。
而爸爸呢？
在躺在病床的那一刻。。插满了氧气喉的那一刻。。
拿不稳的笔依然在他手中摇摇欲坠地摆动。。
还很不放心的。。
要把他的公司交给一个十九岁。他最不放心的女儿。。
他也很担心。。他也很无能为力吧。。
哥哥这样了。。姐姐也在外地。。
妈妈。。。
更是令他担心的吧。。

我只知道。。
在这个时候。。
我自己怎样已经不重要了。。
一定要加油。。
要撑下去。
爸，放心吧。
我能做到的。
我一定能。 一起加油吧。 爸爸。


谢谢朋友们的关心。
我没事。