Singapore's trip

This is my sister and her dear, my future jie fu!



TALL LEH?Don't bully me, or else I ask him to stare at you, MUAHHAA..




Just arrived at sg, 1 st place i went, the bugis junction. christmas tree , ngek ngek.



.Starfish ah~~~~~Can touch , ngek ngek, still got stingray !! smoothnya, i think cook jor, sure nice to eat....



BIG leh this book, ngek ngek... and my FACE very BIG too.. haih..







You see my hungry face is it very very yiong sui leh?欠打。kena stolen took geh picha...





Me and mirc ah, my "aiya" DAI KORH.



see he closed his eyes then know he no eyes to see me la. haih..

The song of the sea~ i think its most likely the dance of the sea~





In the aquarium! I saw the great white shark... and 1 question, why they put the shark with those fish, but the shark nvr eat them gerh? @_@ MUACKS ... kiss kiss stingray~

每一次看见你，我总有一种想亲近，却又无能为力的感觉。
所以我小心翼翼，不让自己有机会接近你。
那天我又看见你了。我最喜欢你穿的白色tshirt,配上你一直以来不会变的jeans 和球鞋。
我曾经以为，我不会再有想念你的感觉。好不甘心，我居然又失败了。要两年了。呵呵...
想念你。所以我不允许除了你以外的另一个人，他只会让我更加寂寞。

I miss those days.

This post, is for my dear family's members.

That day, i went back ipoh, in the car, i hold my grandma's hand...
its still so warm, so big and so real...
But it did change, not as smooth as last time and... it seems like full of the scars of the ages...
She is getting older and older, I wish I could stop it.. was trying to swept away the wrinkles on her hands, so i keep rub and rub her hands... but it seems like don't want to leave her hands at all... until she is wondering what am I doing,she smile and asked, " what you doing?"... then she smile and says, "your hands is so big now, grown up already..., so nice hands, when will you hold a boy friend and bring him back home?"
Grandma, is a very " in " woman, heh.. she is very cute and adorable. Just like the one in the " gah hou yuet yuen, moonlight resonance" drama... In my mind, she is always so healthy and strong... She is always very funny and... she is very pin sam, ( pilih kasih ). My family says, i look very alike with her, even my characteristic , very similiar with her. May be that's why she especially likes to talk with me, and sayang me a lot. How i wish she could... attend my wedding ceremony, and hugs my sons and daugther. I want her to bargain my "lai gam" with his family too... But.. I'm worrying now.. because, i couldn't stop the time... Her hand is going dryer and dryer, no matter I buy how many bottles of moisturizer... it's just couldn't stop the facts...

My parents,
that day they heard about my sister is going to marry soon, I saw a piece of upset on their face, but very fast it had covered by the happy emotions. They are happy for their daughter, but they actually is ng seh dak in their heart... Mom says she wants to make a kei pou to wear in her wedding ceremony, then i suggest we 3 can wear kei pou together... Actually i quite jealous my sis and bro... dad and moms are still able to attend their ceremony, with fully attention, and even can make a nice dress for it , plan for it, and at their age, they can born a kid for them. My parents love kids a lot, I can see it from how they spoilt my cousin's children. My mom borned me when she is 42. I assume I'm going to marry at I'm 30, she is 72 that time, will she able to wear kei pou that time? .... I just wish, she can be still healthy enough, to help me, judge about the guy that I'm marrying...

Last time,
I always like to hang my hands on my dad's pant's pocket, the place ngam ngam for my height to put my hands there. and one more reason is becuz, in there, always got a lot of candysssssssss, which I like to eat a lots. Now, I'm almost as tall as him when i'm wearing my high heel shoes... when he went to shopping with me in genting, he even felt tired and legs began to pain becuz he stood too long... i miss those days, when i fall down on the road, he still can carry me up, the big shoulder... although my bloods is spread on his shirt, he is only concern about whether I'm hurt or not... he is always like that... he will never scold me, even I knew it's my fault... he will just says, you are still young, sure will do something wrong, isn't it?
Dad,
Thanks for always holding the umbrella for me when there is raining... I saw ur shoulder has all gone wet actually.
Thanks for always forgives me when I did something wrong...
Thanks for a whole bed of stuffed toys...
Thanks for 18 years , you will give me what I wished for my birthday as always.. Never got 1 time i will be disappointed by your presents...

That day, when the car had broke down... my phone had gone no battery, after i get to contact you, I can feel your worries... Sorry for make you worry... even i broke the car's realm that may cost you over 1k bucks, but when 1st sight you see me, you're smiling... and even when you choose the realm, you still ask for my preference...

You always....make me smile when I'm upset...
I can rarely find a dad will sms his daugther while she is bored in class. But you are the one...
Although you don't like i sleep in the morning and wake in the afternoon, but in the morning before u go to work, I still noticed that you are putting off my curtain to avoid the sunlights burned on my legs... I still see you off my fan, and on the air cond for me...

I remember when I'm in primary school... I forgot to bring my homework. and you are the one, when i call you, you will never scold, and rush back home, bring the small brown notebooks for me...

I remember no matter how busy you are, when I felt sick, you will come back home or come over my school to fetch me see doctor, before you leave my room to go back office, there is always a cup of warm water beside my bed with the medicines there.

I remember when I'm staring at the stuff I like, you will try your best to get it for me, even I never say anything....

I remember you will always buy my favourite cheese cake when I'm upset... You thought I will be happy for the cake because the cake is my favourite, but I'm actually touched by you. Because I know, no matter what happened, you will be there... My biggest tree that I can always hide under... My perfect protection.

I remember last time when all people are rushing sister to get marry, you are the one who says,
You are always able to take care of your daugthers , no matter how old they are, no need to rush.

I remember when I'm small, you will always help me to split away the chicken and the bones,
take out the bones from the fish even until I'm 12 years old. or now... tear off the prawn's shell for me sometime...

You will purposely orders fish for me, or any others seafood, but actually you don't like it. Your favourite is pork and chicken... but our dishes are always fish , vegetables and taufu. Because you know I'm on diet...

You know about what kinds of snacks I like, I don't like pepsi, coca cola. I like vitagen, even which colour is my favourite taste, you can tell it, and the refrigerator, is always full with the whole bar of that colour's vitagen... You know I like bread with the peanut and grape taste jam, the kitchen always have it.... You even know I like the red cheese ring, that's why when I'm sleeping in car, you will buy me one when u are pumping petrol...

You know I scare to fail in my exams, that's why you always tell me, just try your best, there is always another choice than the exams...

I remember last time, everyday I will looking forward for the time you get back home from work, You always will smile with a very gg face, and brings some surprise back for me, candy? chocolate? or whatever you bought for me, everyday, it's different...

I scare alone at home, I scare alone everywhere, tat's why when i go genting, you will always wait until I felt asleep only leave the hotel to casino... even when I suddenly get to woke up, I will saw your sms, anything, call me... for a supper..

You disagree with going starbucks, 15 bucks for per drinks, its killing you. But you will ta pao it and put it on the table... before you leave the room...

You know I like to go cinema for movies, thats why u brought me to watch the 3D movies... even you say, pei you watch, but It is a cartoon...

I like to watch animation and cartoon a lot, you and mom will always pei me and watch the 2 hours cartoon there.

Dad, you had spoilted me... and now, I wish I can pay you back something... How I hope i can reduce the white hairs on your head... I hope you always stay healthy.. I hope I can buy you a brand new car.. for going up genting, that little car really worry me up everytime when u driving to genting... I wish I could borned u a grandson to play with you... I hope I can pei you and mom forever.. Why when i grow up, all the ppls around me will get old... I hope i can be irrealistic for 1 time, can I keep growing, but you all stay at this age? Stay healthy.... I love you , dad. as always.. and forever. I'm really glad and appreciate that you're my dad, and I'm your daughter. I really felt, Im the luckiest daughter in the world. Thank you, my dearie lou dao . -to be continue LOL

Today vomit jor few times, i think is the KFC's fault :(, but anyways,
Today is very happy geh :D heh.. because i got to chat with him like the last few days. He intro jor me a novel. online geh, so got to read it too. quite interesting @_@ I like to chat with him gum. and repeat to hear the song that sings by him @_@.. only in ipod can hear clearer.. actually sing dak quite nice, but sure not those singer standard la, muahahaha...

I like the feeling when I chat with him about novel, hard to find a ppl can chat novel geh jor hehe.. and i like the lyrics he filled. @_@ nice. i hope i can sing the feelings of the lyrics out. heh.. practise !! i think he is wasting effort on the lyrics, so i must try my best to sing heh. actually i very pei fu him.. heh. to express those feel in so little words is not easy, and still need to write until suit the melody. 请加油。

ah shui is reading the shen diao xia nv now, @_@ but he can't online today. but he seems like enjoying reading that novel, gambatte!

开心，是因为他？我不知道....
不开心，是因为他？我也不清楚...

If i got chance, i won't let you be lonely anymore.

today this blog, is I want to write for someone, a friend that is important to me. Even now we hardly chat. @_@. I even not sure that he got read my blog or not, hehe.

I knew him in RO, form 3. @_@ in a private ro. i think probably thats called simonRO, if not mistaken.. with my another friend, boo. that time we were very close to each other. I thought before, we could stand for ever, stay at such situation. But when we grow we know, it is kinda impossible. Today, i view your friendster. perhaps you are the one who shouted in shout box, perhaps not. but anyways @_@, actually i hope u're not, its kinda ROU MA and GELI if you read this post ...... tian. actually i was always spy ur activities via your frenster or msn's nick , wakaka. but its seems like only can give me some clues about your life, you seems quite happy, much more leng zai, more lifes' activities with friends, not only football hehe... or may be last time also, i never really get to know more about you. Yesterday night ( today morning?) i lied on my bed, today is his birthday, (em...is HHH's) , i was considering very long, whether I should sms him or not? but , i did. at least it is still my wishes for him, happy birthday. i know he might be not happy to see my sms but, i hope he can accept the wishes. but seems like can't , he quite unlike the sms, which i can get to know by his reply. but never mind... :), shui says, anyways, i had greet him. And yea, i waste 1 hour, to think about when is your birthday, and... i realise,
i merely can remember it is on may 26th if i not mistaken. haha, now i think back , i think i really had been spoilted that time, by you and HHH. thats why i can always act so ren xing like a big kid e5

Here actually i want to say sorry to you.May be your feel is true, I did wrong last time for many reasons, i never care much for your stuff, such as when is your birthday, i never remember hardly, what you actually doing in school? I don't know much... Who you like? I guess I don't know. Your family matter... i only know a little bit, all that you told me, actually is so little. Your health? i think i knew about the hepatitis. What is your hobby? football and online games? What movies you like? Which subjects u dislike the most? I only know you lazy to study @_@ movies? i think is comedy. but all also i think, perhaps i should ask, and not only by predicting. Sorry, sei zai, i remembered u did change your msn nick for me, because one of my ex called raymond, and i don't want to see his name that time, so childish @_@ and you changed your nick to sei zai, for few years i think? Actually now i think back, you did so much for me, walk under the rain, just for the nike bag, rush to pavilion after school to pei me have dinner and sing k. Money is not the important stuff, it is about your health and time. I don't know what the hell i'm doing that time, but now i got no chance to get to know more about you or do more stuff for you anymore. it is about a misunderstanding? perhaps it is my fault to make you lost confidence in me, in our friendship. But one thing you are so wrong, I never think to make use of you, it is just, I wish to see you, but not others , when I'm alone or upset. I might not look like upset, but I did , for that time. I asked you to go out with me when kevin ask me out, because i believe you are the one who can protect me, no matter what. I don't trust him , but you, i got no reasons to have a doubt on you. i don't know to explain well, and perhaps , the misunderstanding does hurts. But it had passed, for me. I'm sorry for what I had did to you. And as you say, i still missing you while I'm walking in pavilion, but i never avoiding to go there, because i enjoy the feeling while i missing you. I like simple people, that face which smile with no others reason, just happy and joy, your smile always so big and real. even now when i think back, it make me smile. When im upset, I still will remind myself about your joke, and your words, you will be there. I still believe in that, although we never talk, hehe @_@ thick skin sia. your joke, you eat tissue, it makes me happy back even im emo. everytime u sit beside me, no matter in realife or game, i can feel your heart, and the warmess, no need words. I know you will be my side. I trust, you. and may be you are not, but until now, I still choose to trust you.

Sometimes you like pretty emo too, got many times i felt like want to msg you, says gambatte? or... take care @_@ you are having spm now. i know its kinda suffer for you, ngek ngek. Malay is important, don't fail @_@ but malay already passed . I think you got someone that you like, hoi, tunggu apa, don't siasuikan, chase or regret. even fail , don't give up! support you mentally. I guess last time i never put enough cares for you, well, i don't like the childish me before too. hehe... i don't know how to treasure, that is why this is my time to regret now, it is a lesson. i had learned from it. And hope that you could find someone in the future who will treasure you @_@.

I will never forget the day that you're wet, and felt fever for that nike bag.
I will never forget about your jokes and carings.
I will never forget about your sms when I'm totally fragile.
I will never forget how your lame jokes that cheers me up always.
I will never forget the day we sing k in red box plus, you said it's like an concert.
I will never forget about.. the english name that u made, for me... lol
I will never forget our favourite emotion, e16.
I will never forget about your big big smile.
I will never forget about the black padini and sub black shirts that you bought.
I will never forget about we watched the movie in the 1st roll and there is so damn cold.
I will never forget about we went to sakae sushi, and ate for rm120 , until can't finish.
I never forget about you say you own looks like lam fong! may be his name also raymond hehehe, it makes me always chase the series that got him now, it makes me feel thats you @_@, especially the gah hou yuet yuen story, his characteristic very similiar with you, always cares for others, but not your own... i kinda miss you, when watching it. hahahaha....and you like that songs too. everytime listen it now, i think of you. lol....yea , we should let go @_@ as you said, it had passed. but.. i still ...won't let go haha, at least for those memories

if i got chance, i will wish to know what is your feel that time? walk under the rain... do you feel cold? @_@ fever... do you feel lonely? do you feel upset when i ask you to come out? what you feel when u thought im making use of you? What you feel.. when i can't understand you? if im you, i sure will feel very lonely... sorry.. to left you there.
are you angry? are you sad? i don't know about it, now regret also useless @_@ sorry..

I will never forget about, you.
A person that is always there, when I need you, and sorry if when you need me, I'm not there.
I like you , forever, you're still my best friend. hehe... don't always only care for others, love yourself more.

Dedicated to Raymond.
From ying.

well, i'm kinda lazy to write blog about daily activities actually @_@.
but i promised someone i will write for him for some sakes. =)
so, i better make it fast.
today i declared my own holiday again, because of? the laziness, and previous night chat too late =_____=. today don't have important class, and tomorrow got exam, so decided to stay home and do some exercise for it, it is math test.. my most headache subject. @_@...
but due to my laziness, dragging until night only start my revision, it seems like nth much to study, more scary. and my line keep on dc, wasted that, today is his last day to online, haih, can't talk much with him @_@. and he looks upset too. he had been waited me in RO @_@ for very long. and login RO to see you, it is not wasting time ler @_@ really.

and actually @_@ curi-curi say, ( i think he won't read my blog )
i quite happy because he filling up lyrics for that song. hehe. +_+
i will try my best to sing it, for you.

给水，
今天你看起来有点不开心。不用担心，真得很想向你保证，你真的，没有人能代替。呵呵。
我最不愿意看见的，原来是你不开心。可是你不开心一定要告诉我，因为我不想看你装开心。我好像能感觉得到，你今天的失落·——·，是我多心吗？
你想我八万多次一天，我想你，不能计算。=D

涕寄予水心情纪录篇（二）

Confusing and unstable.

世上岂尽如人意，
莫负知己莫负卿？

when you get something, you will definitely lost something, sometime, it is really hard to have win-win situation. hehe, not only in business, it is totally the same in my life too. I don't want to make the decision, at least for now . @_@ 顺其自然 bah.

He finally replied me after three days. I did had a phobia when ppls don't reply my msgs. haha, its seems like i'm so so so sentimental , right? I'll start to worry about him/her if he don't reply my msg suddenly, just like him. I don't want it to happen again, and what can I do that meanwhile is just stood beside him beside his bed and regret that I did not reply his msg that time, the feelings of regreting is killing me hardly that time. I don't want it anymore.

As bay said, may be i shall happy because he is nothing, even something had happened on him, but he is still there, isn't it a good thing? Actually after I tell him all the stuff, i felt very happy @_@. muahaha, but may be he is not, because he is the one who needs to ''fan'' from now on =p.

A summary for today, Rainy and Lucky =D

1. Today, i very naughty , because the class actually started at 8, but i'm in my dream until 10 o clock. and when i off my alarm, i felt... i did a right choice :DDDDD. i still answer my mom when she ask me what time is my class very directly without any considering, " 11 o clock, zzzz (sleep jor ) "

2. After that, i reached our dearly HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE's carpark at 11 o clock, the toughest hour to get a carpark . and the cars park until damn near, until i scare i will terscratch my little green =( , so i decided to stop my car behinds some cars, waits for rabbit (守株待兔）,
who knows a leng zais appeared in my mirror, and knock my windows, '' leng lui, =D i want to reverse my car." wooot... lucky!

3. Study in library, then math class. yesterday I was trying so so hard to ''ngai'' my lecturer to postpone to test which supposed to be held on tomorrow to next tuesday, today he is giving the confirmation to us, the 2nd lucky thing is he confirmed that postponation. muahahha...

4. Stats test papers is easy @_@ out of expectation i had finished the paper in 1 hour. And i had tried very hard to inform mr lee wei loon that i had finished the paper , but because he ben-ness,
never realise =[.... waste my effort. i purposely close my calculator and keep my pens in front him somemore.

5. Parents went genting. Jio few buddies to dinner. Ken, Gam, and Bay went. bought 2 leng leng T-shirts at queens park, ate sushi king there. then after that Gam fetched us to sg.long. had a 2nd round, -_- its a lesson that don't split to order the foods, we had repeated order 2 plates of taufu and that ''jut jut '' , @_@ too many until can't finish. Lucky there got AOD let me watch :D

6. 3rd round in Maideen, was playing chess and playing cards until so excited, but Ken need to back to home jor, someone's mom finding her son, (人家阿妈o玩仔）. so we went back home.

7. online, help mr Q to pvp. because ken's mood fragile. so must pei him a bit @_@

8. msn. rye replied! lucky @_@?

9. write blog. =D

For baka light.

The sky is getting dark now,
looks upon the sky,
did you think of us, even once?

The wind is blowing gender on my face,
leaves travelling along it,
did you stop your journeys, even once?

-- The distances between us is so far yet so near, even i might can't recognize your face while we met accidently, but our hearts do recognize each other of us. Thats makes a zero distance. I like your calls, and sms, it is still warm even though it travels so far. Best wishes to you..

From baka ying.

给水，

天黑黑...
是否有令你忆起？
天清清...
是否会让你惦记？
风轻轻...
是否能让你回思？
水淅淅...
是否曾让你叹息？

一份永远不会变质的友情，之所以不会变质，是因为我和你之间，根本没有任何杂质。

-涕寄予水的心情纪录篇（一）