myHome: February 2009

我，忘了从什么时候，开始学会不相信。学会了猜疑。
当然一开始不是这样的。
那个女生不曾梦想自己喜欢的男生会像偶像剧里的男生一样呢?
当然是因为跌倒了。。疼了。。然后慢慢地。。慢慢地。。学会了。。戴起了面具。。
因为大家都戴着面具。。
男生是很贪玩的动物。。。我忘了谁曾经含着泪对我说过这样的话。。

I had forgotten, since when i started to doubt about others...
and not to trust others..
Of course it is not from the beginning,
which girl doesn't dream about her guy is exactly same with the one who is inside the fairy tales?
Because she had fall down, get injured, and slowly....slowly... she learned to wear the mask to cover her face.. and all of the others also started to wear the mask...
Boys, are one kind of the animal which like to play a lot...
I even forgot who with a pair of teary eyes and tells that statement to me..

人小鬼大吗?我并不这么认为。。。
从三岁到八十岁的爱情。。不都是一样吗?
长大了又有什么不同呢? 你追求的东西不一样了么?
你并不单单只要一个你喜欢的人，而他也喜欢你的人么?
你还想要一个能达到你要求的人。。。甚至，是你爸妈要求的人。。。
小时候的恋爱。。有紧张，心跳。。。长大了还是一样的。。但是为什么。。。
人越大。。就越怕说出内心的感受呢?
怕被人嘲笑。。还是怕被否定呢? 还是怕自己再也没有办法像小时候一般。。
怕伤心之后不能。。站在大街上大声淘淘大哭呢?

We are still kid right? @_@.. i don't think so ne..
In love, what's the different between a three years old and eighty years old?
what's the differences after you grown up? what you want had changed?
you are not just desire for someone you like, and he likes you too ?
but you started to find someone who you want him to be? or even your parents want him to be?
Loving relationship while we are young, heart beating fast, feeling uneasy...
even after u had grown, it's still the same..
But what's the reason of people can't tell the truth to the one they like after they grown?
Scare to be rejected by her? scare of being laugh or tease? or we afraid of we already can't cry like we are small , loudly on the street?

跟我差不多年龄的男生。。还是很贪玩的吧。。。
我遇过不少。。很贪玩的。
他们喜欢把爱这个字挂在嘴边。。
见面没几次。。话也没多少句。。
就能说喜欢你了。。
能当真吗?

Guys who are around my age... i think you all are still thinking how to enjoy your young life right?
I had met a lot, who likes to play a lot..
They always like to talk sweet thingy,
and keep flirting around with ''love'' this word...
just met few times before, even nvr ever really chat..
but they can tell you that they had fallen in love with you,
can you believe it?

真正喜欢你的那一位。。
在说喜欢你的时候。。。应该是很困难的吧。。
他可能是对着镜子复习了一整个晚上。。。
他可能找了好几个老友谈了好几个通宵。。。
他偷偷想了跟你无限可能的将来。。
他还想了如果你听了以后脸色不太好，他得怎么把他喜欢你这句话当成笑话说，都想好了。。

the one , who is really love you,
when he is telling you the truth, it should be very tough bah @_@...
he might facing the mirror and keep practising for whole night..
or he might disturbing or bugging his best friends for few weeks..
He even imagined unlimited future with you :D...
he still planned nicely what if you get frightened by his words... then he needs to tell you it is a joke @_@

他害怕。。。
因为他害怕他不能和你一起创造将来。。
因为他怕你听了以后会不开心。。。会烦恼。。
因为，
我喜欢你，这句话。。。
可以算是一个承诺。。。
一份他送给你最宝贵的礼物。。所以他一定很害怕你没听见。。
还是他害怕你不信任他。。

He is so scare..
he is afraid of he can't be with you in his future..
because he scare, if you get frightened or feel uneasy about his words?
because,
I love you, this statement...
it is a promise...
A precious present from him, that's why he is afraid of you can't listen clearly about it..
or you don't trust him..

男生们。。你们都是怎样跟你的她诉说你们的心声呢?
msn? sms 么? 还是电话里呢?
你们知道吗?
她也很希望在你们对她说这句话的时候。。。能够看着你们认真的眼睛。。
因为我们相信，那时候，我们就能在那双眼睛里面看见最幸福的自己。
因为她们只有看着你们认真又害羞紧张的表情，才能告诉自己。。他。是值得信任的。。
才能告诉曾经被骗过无数次的自己。这个他，值得我为他冒这个险。
所以，请认真地。。认真地。。。看着她。。对她说。。
因为我相信。。。
如果真的喜欢她。。你就会。。愿意。。坦荡荡。。大声地对她说。。
就算被拒绝又怎样！
至少，你曾经认真过。。

Guys, how you all tell yours' her about your heart?
msn? sms or in phone?
Do you know about it @_@..
actually they really do hope whenever you tell them about ur heart,
they can look into ur eyes deeply ...
because we trust, at that particular time... i can see our own reflection in your eyes, which is full of hapiness that ever in my life ..
because only when we get to look into your eyes, we can tell ourself, he is the one who worth to be trusted, who worth for me to take the risk... the one who had get cheated for a lot of times before...
because I believe that,
if you really do loves her, you will be willing to... stand straight..
and tell her loudly! I love you!
Eventhough u know u will be rejected, but at least..
you tried , in a serious way!

爱，其实不用天天说出口。。
因为爱，并不能用简单的三言两语来形容。。
爸爸，他从来也没有说过他爱我。
但是我却能却却实实。。。细微地。。贴心地。。感觉到他温温的爱意。。
反而，
哪些不认真地，却常常把爱挂嘴边的人，太不尊重这个词了。。。
除非他们能做到这么这么爱一个人。。
而不是纯粹为了让那个人开心而说的。。
那人听了，真的会开心吗?

Love, actually no need to tells..
Because it can't be describe by words..or literally...
My dad he never says by his mouth before,
but he is telling me by his actions..
I can feel it... slowly... pieces by pieces and comes to my heart...
so please..
Says it only when u meant it.. hehehe...

this valentine i had a single party dinner @_@
but yet i get some surprise presents... thank you , haha..
although he still dont know what is meant by the 6 roses LAH , ( ACTUALLY is no meaning one ), and i quite dont know what to do when i get the roses lolz..
i think.. it is better to make it slowly bah, swt.. just, we are still friend, okay? @_@
sell roses and get back roses felt like he get cheated already , hahahah~
@_@..
that day actually very happy to meet a leng lui fren geh, yee leng! 20! so friendly nia, i hope can chat more with her and see her more often next time la, so wu ya, please sik do a bit, always bring her out bah! hahahaa..

and i bought some friendship chocolate for ah shui, and ah bay gerh, but i forgot to take out to bay that night yum cha... who ask him ffk me in the afternoon! hahaha...

Thanks ah jan ah joyce ah gam ah lei, leng lui 20, of course ah shui and ah sammy ah xg.. ah vince and ah immortal zai, i had a quite nice valentine .

thanks to xg waste his car's petrol so i no need to do the stuff i hate the most, drive in midnight,
so i can rest in the car while i want to go out and have fun with friends. hahahaha.. come to cheras and back to pj 4 times ma, no need keep remind me geh, okay anot!

Thanks to heaven bistro that 2 singer nia, u guys sing well ! pretty voice that similiar with jacky cheung, but why didn't give us present leh? :( , hehehe.. I WANT TO SING K AH!

hahaha... here is some photo of my valentine presents.